I watched an episode of Louie today. It was in fact the finale of season 3. This woman he had one date with then cannot get ahold of, (played by Parker Posey), he ends up seeing as he's traveling by bus on a depressing Christmas day. When they see each other I felt that, ok this is such a happy ending to this episode! Then as they see and run to each other her nose starts bleeding and she faints. Rushed to the hospital Louie hears that her cancer is back and she dies on Christmas day in front of him.
I realize that I'm young and am always told I shouldn't be worrying about death at my age, but this so called dark "comedy" really affected me. Why did this have to be written and shown on television? To make cancer more real?
I have fainted seriously twice in my life and was convinced that I had a brain tumor. I had slight seziures during these fainting spells and had to get multiple tests afterward. I had a bump on my head that I still have and was told it's "probably just a cyst" when I was 19. I had EKG's EEG'S cat scans, and MRI testing on my brain, as well as a thyroid test. All were negative. They found nothing.
Why do I continue to worry about this? Because what if something has developed that I don't know about? The problem here I know is not my physical health, its my mental health.
The reason I fainted both times is because I had major panic attacks. Both also included intense flashbacks about something horrible that happened to me months earlier..
It's now almost 6 years later and I'm still learning how to cope with these worries of the past. But anyway Its amazing that this scene from Louie brought up all of these crazy memories and emotions for me. I am a fan of the show but I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel about this episode. Does this make quality television because it made me feel terrible? I get that striking those chords of audience reaction is a key factor but what happened to relaxing when watching late night TV? And this is supposed to be comedic too. I realize that this is categorized as a "dark" comedy but there really hasn't been anything to laugh about lately when watching Louie
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